Have you ever woken up just feeling kind of blah?! Like you gained 20 pounds over night, your face had shifted somehow into the most unflattering formation and your view of yourself was less than awesome? I’m sincerely hoping I’m not alone here because that is how I’m feeling this morning.
Thankfully I have far fewer of these days than I used to. In the past I had some serious image issues. That led to different types of eating weirdness (more appropriately called disorders). So, on days like this I try to remind myself of how far I have come. How far God has brought me because I do know that it is through His guidance that I am where I am. I also know that He didn’t make any mistakes when he made me.
There is not anything about me that is an accident. I have to say that out loud because it helps me to hear myself. It’s crazy how you can know the truth to your core but not always believe it for yourself.
I don’t know why these mornings/days happen. Maybe it’s because I ate too much peanut butter (yes, peanut butter! I could seriously eat a whole jar) last night, so subconsciously I’m beating myself up this morning? Even typing that feels silly but again I can’t be alone or at least I’m hoping so. It’s crazy what we can convince ourselves of…good or bad.
Or is it because some weird hormones are going on in my body right now ( I feel like I’m always going through some sort of hormonal state). Or maybe it’s the enemy trying to steal my joy? Regardless of what the reason for the feeling, I don’t like it and I want to make it stop. How do I make these thought stop?
Well, I heard Dave Ramsey speak before and he said, “if you fill something with good so much the bad eventually has to flow out.” So, that’s my plan. Sounds pretty logical, right?!
I will keep speaking the truth to myself and out loud. The truth goes for you too! Here are some truths that help me:
- The Father knew me before He knit me in my mother’s womb!
- I am beautifully and wonderfully made!
- He knows the number of hairs on my head!(I mean, that’s amazing!)
- There is no one else uniquely like me!
- I have a unique voice that no one else has.
- God made me for a purpose!
- The most important thing in life is love and how I treat others (not how I feel about my face or any other body part on a given day)!
These are the types of thoughts I am going to continue to feed my brain, body and soul today. Because I know what I’m “feeling” is not the truth. I refuse to let mean lies about myself ruin my day and my son’s day because let’s be honest, how you feel effects how you act. My son deserves for me to act and feel my best.
Therefore, I will arm myself with righteousness. I am who Christ says I am!
Excuse me now while I step off my soap box. Thank you for being a part of this rant.